Being a Hidden Artist

Since I started the blog, I feel like I’ve been having an internal conflict: Do I want to stay a “hidden artist,” or put myself out there? I came across a quote recently and created an art journal page to express my sentiments.

Hidden Artist Art Journal Page

Hidden Artist Art Journal Page – Caran D’Ache Neocolor II water soluble artist crayons, Crayola crayons, Posca paint pens, American Crafts Galaxy marker, and Sakura Gelly Roll pens.

I have always been a very private and introverted person. It’s probably one of the first things people notice when they meet me. It feels like a lot of people treat that as a shortcoming, but I think it has its advantages. I consider myself a good listener, which helps with problem solving and allows me to help others. Even though I’m a good listener, I rarely give anything up about myself. I’ve thought about why, and I’ve realized that…

It all boils down to fear.

Fear of:

  • Being rejected, misunderstood, and made fun of
  • Not being good enough or not what others expect me to be
  • Allowing myself to be in a more vulnerable position

I continue to reflect on this and think, maybe I should work on breaking down the wall. Over the last year, I’ve felt myself powering through my emotions and trying to hide it all under a stoic exterior. This isn’t realistic or sustainable, especially with something so passionate and personal as art.

As I’ve gotten back into blogging, I’ve discovered so many other blogs and artists. Contrary to what I’ve thought, we’ve all hit times where we’ve struggled and had to face challenges. We’re all learning and growing every day. It’s inspiring for me to see someone else’s creative (or personal!) journey and their process. If my goals are to advance in my creative journey and prioritize the things I love, then it only makes sense to me that…

…opening up is important.

I’m slowly discovering (or re-discovering) that:

  • My friends and family are supportive
  • Overall, the artist community is very constructive and positive
  • I need to work on being less afraid to be myself

This certainly will not be a flip-of-a-switch change, but I do want to be more mindful of this as I grow as an artist.

How do you feel about opening up? Do you find it hard to share your art with others?Artfully Megan Signature

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