Art Journal Page – Lifelong Resolution

Since my vision of 2015 is still fresh in my mind, I thought I’d take the time to blog about another goal I have. It’s a lifelong resolution and very personal to me: weight loss. Every year, millions around the globe commit to losing weight and living a healthier lifestyle. I know that I’m not alone in my fight and it’s because of this I want to share my experience, along with my latest art journal page.

Art Journal Page - Believe in Yourself

Art Journal Page – “Lifelong Resolution”
Supplies: watercolor, stencils, colored pencils, marker, gel pen, washi tape, black pen

I’ve been overweight for as long as I can remember. I experienced the teasing, mocking, and name-calling. I must have heard every variation of “If you lost weight, you’d be pretty…” and I’ve been passed over countless times because I don’t look a certain way. Whether meant as humor, “motivation,” or true injury, it became the phantom that haunted my life.

I think some people in this situation channel their hurt into becoming comedians or just plain angry. I became withdrawn. Every person I met was a new opportunity for judgment and pain. Every person I grew close to was another change for betrayal. I was protected as long as I didn’t open up my mouth or my mind.

This was my M.O. for many years until I realized that in the “real world,” shutting myself in wasn’t going to cut it. I had career goals and personal aspirations that I could not achieve if I kept quiet. My insecurity and lack of confidence were becoming increasingly apparent. I spent some time trying to sort it out on my own, but it never felt quite right. Things really didn’t start coming together until 2013, when I finally decided to take control.

Artfully Megan Before and After

Left: 2013 on one of my many adventures!
Right: 2014 after completing the Dirty Girl mud run for breast cancer

Over the next several months I lost more than 60 pounds with the help of talk therapy, exercise routines, and an improved relationship with food. Surprisingly, what started out as something very outwardly focused took a backseat to the internal change. Those months taught me that I was strong and had ideas worth sharing. I started running (sometimes outside!) and going to the gym (while other people were there!).

Though 2013 gave me a glimpse of a promising future, 2014 marked the resurgence of old habits and feelings. My efforts plateaued, my routines felt stale, and my loneliness began to get the better of me. But I think part of life is learning when and how to pick yourself up again. So for 2015 I’ve recommitted to keeping healthy and functionally fit!

Artfully Megan Signature

Have you made any health goals for 2015? How do you keep motivated?

Comments

  1. I believe you can do 100% of the things you apply yourself to- I’m behind you all the way! šŸ™‚

  2. Congratulations – What a great achievement! Love your art journal page and the positive quote too.

  3. I hope that your past success with pursuing healthy eating and exercise will help you get back on track to meet your 2015 goals! For what it is worth, when I met you last Monday, I had no idea that you consider yourself overweight. I saw a young woman with a pretty face, and nothing related to your weight even registered with me! Truly.

  4. Alls I know is that both before and after pics are beautiful. I too am trying to get back to a weight that makes me feel better about myself. I haven’t weighed myself since my surgery and I refuse to. I’ll just keep trying to change those bad habits and live healthier. You are my inspiration. 2015 is bikini year! (Ok maybe not lol)

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